Goodbye...?

*sigh* I was just informed today about Mr. Gutierrez's resignation. And I so like how he teaches Physics! This is the only time ever in my high school that I didn't yawn once in a Science subject. He's a very good teacher, one that you'll regret missing. I mean, he explains everything thoroughly and in an organized manner. He's one of the best fourth year teachers and advisers. Gah. I cried just because of that. I am such a cry baby. But...it's no laughing matter, after all. Even Ruby cried just because of it. He just has this...fatherly aura that makes people like him. He's really nice...and he's absolutely knowledgeable in his field of subject. It's a shame we just had him for three weeks. Three short weeks.

Tomorrow will be his last day of teaching. I wonder...who'll be our Physics teacher when he's gone? And I so thought that this year will be the year I'll get a very high grade on science. Argh.

Siberia

As of now, this is my favorite song. =) Wonderfully sung by Backstreet Boys, from the album Never Gone.

Siberia

When you come back I won't be here
She said and gently pulled me near
If you want to talk you can call
And no, it's not your fault
I just smiled and said let go of me
But there's something I just gotta know
Did someone else steal my part?
She said it's not my fault

Then my heart did time in Siberia
Was waiting for the lie to come true
'Cause it's all so dark and mysterious
When the one you want doesn't want you too

I was drifted in between
Like I was on the outside looking in, yeah yeah
In my dreams you are still here
Like you've always been

Oh yeah, my heart did time in Siberia
Was waiting for the lie to come true
'Cause it's all so dark and mysterious
When the one you want doesn't want you too

I gave myself away completely
But you just couldn't see me
Though I was sleeping in your bed
'Cause someone else was on your mind, in your head

When I came back she wasn't there
Just a note left on the stairs
If you want to talk give me a call

My heart did time in Siberia
Was waiting for the lie to come true
'Cause it's all so dark and mysterious
When the one you want doesn't want you too
When the one that you want doesn't want you

My heart did time in Siberia
Was waiting for the lie to come true
'Cause it's all so dark and mysterious
When the one you want doesn't want you too

Siberia, Siberia

When the one you want doesn't want you too

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Take it All Away

Stupidity is my middle name. Paranoid is my first name. Gawd. I am stupid and paranoid. What more could I be?

How wrong I was in pretending the unreal. How wrong I was to dream of something that I can only achieve in my dreams. Yes...just in my dreams. Perhaps I got way overboard and that I was just...overwhelmed by the fact that no one else had seen me in that light before (well...except someone...but forget it).

It was all bluff for me. I can't stand it any longer. I am pretending to be someone I'm definitely not, and it irks me to the core. I dream of something (or someone, for that matter) that is way out of my league. I can't help it. I guess...I'm just inclined to do so. I mean, come on, it's not like I wasn't in this kind of predicament before. I kept thinking of pretentious thoughts and such that led me to nowhere but broken dreams. Now, I still haven't changed that interesting (yet irritating) habit of mine.

Imagination is like a two-way thing. It is my gift, it's my curse (sounds familiar, eh?). I hate feeling like this, but I can't stop it. I just...end up getting hurt.

I've been pondering for awhile about it...and yes, I was right. Never could I achieve something like that.

I take it all away.

Another wallpaper

Nothing excellent, though. :P Hehehehe...just got bored yesterday. Imagshack wouldn't open so I just saved it in MyFileStash.

Click here for the wallpaper.

That's all. :P

A La Ville de Paris

EDIT: I removed the original post since I realized that it was too long. If you want to read the story, choose from these destinations, wherein the story is archived.

FanFiction.Net: A La Ville de Paris
Scarred: A La Ville de Paris
Flourish and Blotts: A La Ville de Paris

Take a peek at the story.

Excerpts:

"By the way," you said. I noticed that the moment you said those words, your cheeks turned a bright red color. You turned a bit to get something that must've been slightly tucked in your jeans.

"For you."

You presented me with three roses, three lovely white roses. My heart stopped beating when I saw those roses. I looked up at you, and you looked away.

"I...just thought it's nice..."

I smiled.

Want more? Click the links above for the entirety of the story!

Got nothing to do...

I had nothing to do...so bored. I really don't want to study for Physics, since...well, not to be arrogant or anything but it's too easy (as for the moment). But really...it's only computations here and there and such...Nothing new. Gosh, I'm even more challenged with English (Gawd...who even expected that S-IV was too hard to spot?!?). Anyways, I'm okay with Trigonometry. It's easy right now (only right now...). My sis said that it was a lot easier than Algebra. But that's her opinion, not mine. Anyway, she's inclined to Math, unlike me. Yeah right, before, I was. I really liked Math (I even joined the MTAP competition and inter-section quiz bees)...that is to say, Arithmetic. You know, the basics. Not like now. Who knew that I'd be dealing with Logarithms? Or Cosine? Gah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gawd...I've got a serious problem besides that. Maybe an even more serious problem than that. Oh, please! Let my wish come true!!!! Please!!!! Please oh please!!!!!

Not another post!

Well...yeah. Here's another post for this day. Bleargh. This one's about the next chapter of Close To You!!!! Yay! I posted it already (thank goodness) and click here if you want to read it. Yayayayayayay!!!!!! That's all...I guess. Teehee...I'm just...bored. I haven't yet decided to start that freaking review session for the quizzes tomorrow. I am like that. One minute after the other, I change my mind so suddenly. Gawd.

Mugglenet and such

Well...another post. Gawd...I realized only at this very moment that I post way too much. Ah well...it keeps me happy. Anyways, like what the title says, this post is all about Mugglenet. Well...whenever I get around and surf the Net, I don't forget to visit that one heck of a HP site. Very nice, indeed. I chose the HP GoF Video Game layout. It's just so...nice. Hmm...I wonder if the game's really nice, considering that the first ones weren't that much good. Well...I didn't enjoy them much. Ah, well...the opinion's mine.

Oh, and yeah, it's only quite a few days before July 16!!!!!!!!! The much-awaited book will be released...very soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I promised myself that this time around I will certainly finish the book in one day, cause I finished OotP for a day and a half. Gawd...must break my own record.

And yeah...the next post will be about wallpapers and fics.

wma and mp3 probs

I am trying my best to find a place for some files on the net. Most of the hostings I've found have a maximum of 1 megabyte/file. I found MyFileStash, yet much to my dismay, the damned Your Page Cannot Be Displayed is on the screen right afterwards the uploading process is finished. Dang. I so need FTP now. Will try and download Cute FTP some time soon. I really need that now!!!! Gawd...

Oh and yeah...I'll try and learn php so I can have my own fanlisting. Teehee...

I have to go now...we have a two (or maybe three) quizzes tomorrow, so I guess this school year I really have to take my studies seriously, and for once, take time to study!

Too problematic

Here I am, once again, posting another might-be lengthy entry in this one heck of a journal. Gah. I have too many problems to deal with that Shush hasn't been on my mind for the past 2 hours (sheesh...). Well, it's on personal matters that I couldn't possibly share with anyone at the moment...it's the family thing. Why am I cursed with this...curse? Eurgh...

Clues: Includes room, calculators, late-night things, big-time spenders, clutter and such. I can't take it anymore.

I just want to die than suffer these things almost every day of my pathetic, insufferable life.

Big-time Spender

That's me. We went out to buy some things I needed for school, and in doing so, I bought some of the things I wanted to buy. For instance I already have a copy of Never Gone! Woot! I am so happy...the DVD is wonderful! You've gotta have your copy of it. You will not regret it. Well...that is if you're a BSB fan. The album is somewhat...mature, if you know what I mean. I guess it's because they're all in their late twenties and thirties, so they lost the dancing touch they had before. Anyways, I still love 'em, and I still loff Nick. :P Heh. He is so totally mine.

Here's the thumbnail (loff thumbnails, btw...) of the album.


And then I bought Princess Diaries 6: Princess in Training. Yay! Currently reading it, and will finish it today...or tomorrow. *checks the clock* Oh...then I guess today will be it. I mean, it's already 12 in the midnight...blargh. Hehehe...I am loving Princess Diaries everytime I read it. This time around, I won't lend it to anyone!!!!!!!!! No way!!!! I've had some troubles with my copies being dirty, somewhat tattered when given back to me. I mean, come on, I lent it to you just so you can read it, and when I get it back it's like I've had it for ages when I bought it only a week ago! People...sheesh...just because it's not theirs, then they don't give much respect for the book. Gawd...I've had my copies tampered, discolored (argh!) and so many things. Of course, I know they didn't really intend in doing so, but what in the world am I supposed to do?! Be thankful that it's ripped to pieces? Gawd. Really.

And then bought the Witch copy I skipped before. Yeesh...Now I'm still having that complete collection. I dunno...I just like seeing the drawings is all.

Hmm...I forgot to buy some load for my phone and the Net. Gawd...:(

Wallpapers...

Yep. Got bored and stuff...so I made these wallpapers...they're actually the same, I only used a different texture for each one. :P LMAO. Just click the thumbnails for the wallpapers.



Credits goes to the creators of PS v.7 for the wonderful program they made.

Sugar and Shush

Well...I've been meaning to post this since yesterday, but since I'm only on dial-up and this wretched card gave up on me. So...here I am, after chatting with my mom on YM. *sigh*

Up to now, I still can't stop thinking about Shush (aka HSS or just plain High School). I decided to have 'im named Shush since the first codename I thought of is HSS, and read it backwards and you get SSH, which led me to thinking about shh or shush. So, yeah.

Like what I said, I still can't stop thinking about Shush. Shush has been on my mind 24/7!!!! Gawd...what is happening to me?! It's like he just popped into my world and started circling all over it! Gawd...everything is off-balance right now. I lose my focus, I always think about one person (Gah!) and I can't help but imagining his smile. Argh!!!!!!!! What the bloody heck is wrong with me?!?

I thought at first that this inclination to thinking about Shush is because of what I'd like to call the "Missing Sugar Syndrome", but it isn't! I thought it was because he reminds me of Sugar and such, but now...it seems like everything's about him. I talk about him (a lot), I keep thinking of him (and not Sugar), and I always want to see him! I check on him, wherever he is at the moment, and I just keep thinking about how nice and how...damn irritating he is! Well...in a cute sort of way.

Gawd, I am falling apart!!!!! I need a dose of sugar!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HELP!!!!

Boring...

Although I still have an assignment or two to do, I had to go and use the computer. I've been missing it for days...Gah. I can't do without it. So...I was bored, and I needed something to do with this up-to-date (yeah, right) computer. So...here's a new wallpaper!!! Click the thumbnail for the image...

That's all for now. =) I'll be making another one when and if I have time.

Random Scribbles from Class

Music: Stay by Cueshe'

I've been having this weird...erm, pastime whenever random thoughts pop in my head as I endure almost ten hours of schoolwork. It seems like I need to get those thoughts out or else, I might face an hour or so thinking about nothing else but that. I need to...let it out, if you know what I mean. Bwahaha...Date included, by the way.

14.06.05

[referring to the then hated, yet now so-so class...Trigonometry]

illuminating yet grammatically incorrect in english usage. A. R. R. O. G. A. N. T. Criticizes the students' way of understanding things.

I h8 algebra! How am I supposed to figure out this one???? [referring to a question asked in the said class]

I hate speed, because different people have different minds, and I'm not one with such talent to be fast in computing algebraic expressions, or the value of this or that...I can do so, yes, but not that fast.

...I'd like [the Geometry teacher] better. I am not good in Algebra.

Inside the classroom, I speak an average of ten words. Make that five.

[written when the class had been too noisy] I need silence. PLEASE!!! S. I. L. E. N. C. E.

[comments on English class] At least I'm going to like English! *sigh* English is my life! I wish to take up Creative Writing...

16.06.05

[PE class...]Kaya gumamit ng Slide para maging mabango, malinis at kaaya-ayang tingnan ang inyong mga damit, lalong-lalo na kapag ito'y kailangan...Papee toothpaste, para sa maputing ngipin at mabangong hininga!

17.06.05

[written as the Home Ec teacher was saying something] Inaantok na talaga ako! Swear, inaantok na ako!

[entitled Comedies] I have the worst luck in the world. Imagine, right when I get the lowest score imaginable, the Damned knew of it! Gawd! What utter luck. Anyways, the pretest (thank goodness for that) would not be recorded. If it were, I'd die. Gawd...after all the worry I had over this wretched pretest...Whew!

[entitled Writing Stuff] I haven't spoken to Ms. Kate about the editorial staff. I am quite hoping I'll be in the Features position...but...maybe it'll be taken by...well...her.

22.06.05

I am bored. This is such a boring class. I am sleepy again. Aren't they sleepy? I am. Whenever it's about Algebra or whatever, I get sleepy! I am really sleepy...Gawd! Ineedtosleep!

[after reciting] I really need to recite more. It keeps me awake. Gah.

23.06.05

I have too parasitic seatmates, not only that, they talk too much! Why am I cursed like this? Tell me!

---

Heh. Sometimes I get too bored...so...there you go. My notes mostly consist of scribbles. Kidding.

Argh! Blogger!!! &*$@!%

Argh! Don't even ask about the last post. Now I'm really irritated. Gah! I wrote this very long post and where did it go? To nothingness, that's where! Gah!!!!!!!!!!!!

Homeworks and nothing else

McDonalds and Clare

Today isn't such a bad day. First off, school dismissal today was early: 2:30! Yay! The three of us (Karla, Ruby and I) went and ate at McDo, laughing like there was no tomorrow. =) It's really nice to spend some quality time with friends...I mean, in the class I hardly ever talk...like I was weird or something! Oh well, there wasn't anything good to talk about, anyway. Maggie's just so far away from me I couldn't speak to her. Argh. I so wish I were back in St. Clare. I just have...many friends there. I know many people in Goretti, but it just wouldn't do. I need the old gang back in Clare...*sigh* I miss third year, what with Poetry in Mime, Sir Pac, Sugar, the whole family with such a great amount of...erm, incest going on (teehee...). I miss the old times. Gosh, I even miss Geometry and Chemistry! After all, both my teachers in those subjects were very good...

Argh...then there's the college issue. I felt bad, thinking that I wouldn't make it for the submission process, but when I came home, there it was (the test permit), waiting for me. Papa wasn't home when I came, so I couldn't thank him. But I will. I dunno...I mean, it's not like I'd pass in the entrance exams or whatnot, but still...there's still the thing of knowing what score you're able to achieve. I'd even like to see if I can pass (even passing a non quota course is okay).

Anyways, my problem's solved. All I have to do now is just worry about Trigonometry. During the pretest, I couldn't even answer most of the questions! Honestly, I just suck in Algebra, and the pretest was full of algebraic questions and such. I mean, come on, I thought I'd forget all that stuff. Gawd, even dear ol' Geometry is easier than that! Now how will I ever be on the top ten list again???? Tell me!

Regulars: About the Damned

Well, due to public demand (sheesh...) I present you with the regular update about the so-called the Damned. Hmm...this seems to be getting popular and popular each day. Ah well...

Okay, so we were having the pretest (or Diagnostic test) in this certain subject, and after we passed the answer sheets, the Damned came up to me and asked if I finished the whole lot. If I could, I would've told the Damned, "Yeah, so what? Like it's any of your business anyway." But due to my being...erm, kindly, I tried my best to answer the Damned in a nice way. Anyways, the Damned isn't even smart (arrogance alert!), so it wouldn't even matter if the Damned answered every single question. I mean, come on, looks deceive. It's not like a person who looks smart really is smart. Gawd...people nowadays...sheesh...they fall for wretched people like the Damned. Sheesh...

Birthdays and such...

Oh yeah, before I forgot...my favorite teacher just turned twenty six today! Yay! Happy birthday to Miss (or should I say, Mrs.?) Kate!

And I'm going to put in a nice tagboard here again (took it off before since it was...erm, used for another site...hehehehehe). Wanna know the people who visit here...lolz.

School stuff

Erm...well, there's nothing much to say, actually. Tomorrow the dismissal is 2:30! Yay! I am so happy! But I won't go anywhere, though. I have problems (like college applications) to think about. Ah well...

The teachers are putting a lot of requirements this year and we're going to bring it on Monday. Almost all of it. Shucks. I'm really having a hard time with this...Shucks. I'm not ready for school yet!!!!!!!

Have to go now, since I have to research on the San Damiano cross first.

New image...again?!

Got tired with the image Anticipating GoF so I made another one! The other reason is the fact that Photobucket isn't working great right now, and since the Anticipating GoF image isn't stored in this computer, I made another one.

This one is just like the signature I made when I joined a message board, Dumbledore's Army, the link to which is on the right side of this blog (In the links) or you can just click the name.

The anime in the image is Tsubasa: Reservoir Chronicle, the not-so-new series of CLAMP. The manga version of TRC isn't new, but the anime version is. =)

Tsubasa: Reservoir Chronicle is a crossover anime featuring the characters of CLAMP's most well-known animes, like Cardcaptor Sakura (the guy in the image is Syaoran from CCS), X/1999, Chobits, and such. I wish I could watch it, but it's only just released in Japan, so...I have to stick with reading the manga for awhile. When it's released here, I'll surely buy a copy. =)

Second Day!

Yes! I recovered from the huge headache yesterday. Today's much, much better. I decided to clean my room, which had been very messy. I can take a bit of mess...but the state of the room was really horrible. I needed to take action in that.

Anyways, I met some of the teachers today. Yup! Some of them were very nice and seemed like good teachers, some of them didn't appeal to me that much. Won't say anything here since someone might read this...I'll just keep everything to myself.

About the Damned? Oh yeah! Hell, yeah! The Damned got embarrassed! Hurrah!!!!! I am so happy. Not that I'm sadistic or anything, but sometimes I just love to see the Damned like that. Like I said before..."I want to squish the Damned until all goo and mucus come squirting about. The Damned is a disease we must stop."

Hah.

Meanwhile...I do hope I'll be having a nice time this year. I'm not talking that much since there isn't anyone in my part whom I can talk to, chat about anything. They're not even my close. Gawd. I so wish Karla or Ruby or anyone I'm close with is beside me. But I have to put up with the seating arrangement until Monday. Hah. I can take it. I will.

Oh yeah...

Yeah...I'm quite tired with the song...so I'll be removing Ha Ji-Won's Nuh Moo Sarang Haet Da Go and replace it with an mp3...exactly what, I still don't know. Hmm...maybe it'll be a new BSB song since that's what I'm currently addicted to. Still waiting for the local release of their new album, Never Gone. Hmm...maybe I'll put up Never Gone as the background song??? Hmm..

EDIT: Yup! I've already gotten hold of Never Gone! Here's Never Gone by Backstreet Boys. =)

First day of school

I have a headache!!! Gawd...it's killing me. First day of school is finished. I don't think I'll ever get through the first week...argh. I just...don't feel my section. But whatever. The only section I ever felt at home on the first day was Bridget. Argh. Goretti seems like...a so-so section. I don't really feel it, though. I haven't got close friends and such. Argh.

And this headache's keeping me from really typing up everything. I have loads to tell about the Damned (yeah!!!). But I have to tell tomorrow. I can't right now. My head is throbbing mad. =(

New image, new school year and too much Gah

Well, this is the last day of vacation. I'm quite sad about this, since I still like to sleep late, still like to sleep for many hours and so on. I don't like to go to school. Argh.

Oh, and the image! It's a different one, since it's a brand new start and I got absolutely tired of seeing the image from the wallpaper I made. Gah. I needed a break from that.

Oh, and yeah. I decided to put the fanlistings I joined in the Nav part of this blog. You can look there, if you want. I'm still trying to look for the other fanlistings I've joined, yet much to my dismay, I still cannot find them all. Gah. I have been joining so many fanlistings way before and I do not keep track of them! What a horrible, horrible person I am! I just remember being a part of a Remembrall Fanlisting, but it went down already. Gah. And then I joined a Patronus fanlisting.

Oh and yeah. I'm in St. Maria Goretti. Gah. Tomorrow is the start of classes, and I'm not even ready. At all. Gah.

Speaking of which, I talked to George just today and he told me about our adviser. Hmm..I wish it'd be Mrs. Arkaina (did I get the spelling right?), but...ah well. I'm still in the school paper, so...yeah. Karla seems to have gotten her wish. Heh. Meanwhile, I am still denying the fact that I am classmates with the Damned. Gawd. The Damned. Why, of all people, the Damned??? Tell me! Gah...

I can't possibly beta any stories right now, since school's starting. Maybe by next Saturday I might finish ani's stories, but right now I just can't. I'm way depressed for that. Garr's blog wouldn't even work. And I so need a dose of Incomplete right now. Argh. Why didn't I just get the URLs of those songs???? Tell me!!! Gah. Now I can't download the whole of BSB's Never Again. Argh. I might buy it...sis seems to like it so much. Hmm...if that's so, I need to earn money fast. I need to buy it before she does! Hehehehe...

*back to depression* Argh. I'm on the verge of tears. No more late sleeping, late waking. No more brunches. No more computer until my eyes get watery. No more talking with dear sis late at night. No more. I have to go to school. Gah. Why, oh why?

And then there's the fact. Major fact. COLLEGE. You didn't get it? C. O. L. L. E. G. E. Yeah, Colegio. Gah. I hate thinking about that. It makes me sick. Terribly sick.

Fanlistings

I lost track of the fanlistings I joined before, and I just remembered making a list when I decided to look through TFL.org. Hmm...now I'm going to list the fanlistings I just joined:

LotRfans
Ex Elibris
Shine We Are
Sensei
Perfect Match
Monuments and Melodies

War of the Worlds

I visited the official site, and boy, was I absolutely stunned. How they used Macromedia Flash was amazing. I liked the sounds (eerie...) and the background picture of Tom Cruise and Dakota Fanning. Marvelous. I do hope I'll be able to watch it. Opening day's June 29, and that's Wednesday. Hmm...maybe I can watch that by Saturday. It would be really, really cool.

War of the Worlds will go to my favorite Flash sites list!

Currently on my list:
JKR Official Site
Michael Phelps
Harry Potter
A Series of Unfortunate Events
War of the Worlds (just added)

Friends and such

Got together with the best buds today. I woke up early (hmm...seven o' clock, what a difference from my usual 1 pm) and called Ruby is she was already awake. I mean, we were supposed to meet at the school front gate by 10:00! Okay...well, I was a bit early but what the heck. So I called her up, and boy oh boy, was she sleepy! She seemed a bit annoyed, though (erm...Ruby, if you're reading this right now...sorry! Well, it really is true, you know), and before long, I had to hang up. So much for waking early.

Then after that I ate breakfast, had a proper talk with Ruby (she called me and she sounded awake...teehee) and called some more.

Guess what?

After my sacrifice of waking up too early just to make it on time, I was still late. I arrived there...um...I dunno, almost an hour late. Hehe. I wasn't alone, though. Karla was late, too (we arrived at the same time). Actually, none of us was on time. Shal and Ruby got there earlier than us but they were both still late. Hah. There goes Filipino time again. *rolls eyes*

And then when we got there to check the sections and stuff, we found out that it would only be published tomorrow! Argh! How even said that today was the day for the sections to be released? Argh. I already know my section, but I don't know many 'classmates'. My section this school year is St. Ma. Goretti. Argh. It would've been nicer if I were with my friends. But sadly, I'm not. So...you get the point.

Quizzes again

Yep, I made my own quiz! Yay! I am so happy I could dance!

Here's te URL of my first ever made quiz! http://quizfarm.com/test.php?q_id=44482

Of Quizzes

I'm...quite bored at the moment and I didn't have anything to do, so I
answered a few quizzes. And the results stand thus:

You scored as Anakin Skywalker


Which Revenge of the Sith Character are you?

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(Of course! Anakin!)


You scored as Sirius Black

You are a gifted wizard and very loyal to your allegiance.
Whilst you have a big heart and care very much about those around you, you can be a little arrogant and reckless at times.


Your Harry Potter Alter Ego Is..?

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(I know way before that Sirius is my alter ego. Hehehehe)

You scored as Loner

What's Your High School Stereotype?

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(Am I really a loner?)

You scored as Verbal/Linguistic

You have highly developed auditory skills, enjoy reading and writing and telling stories, and are good at getting your point across.
You learn best by saying and hearing words. People like you include poets, authors, speakers, attorneys, politicians, lecturers and teachers.

The Rogers Indicator of Multiple Intelligences

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(This, my friends, is the absolute proof that I can write well!)

EDIT: I removed the pictures because more often than not, they cannot be accessible and the layout is ruined.

the Damned

Yeah. School's only six days away. I'm quite...nervous. Heck, I'll be classmates with the Damned. Yeah, the Damned. I hate the Damned, because the Damned is someone I hate. Argh! I can't even tell the whole wide world how awful the Damned is cause I know people will be looking through my perfectly innocent (at first sight) blog! I can't even tell you how much the Damned irritates me, or how much she makes my life Hell! Argh!

The Damned is a virus. If only I could step on the Damned and make the Damned feel helpless, mucus spreading all over...I want to stop the Damned spreading disease all over. But what can I do? Surely, the Damned will infect some innocent person with the Damned's charms, then that person will fall helplessly over the Damned's trap. I hate the Damned. Surely, I do. But no matter how much I hate the Damned, I have to spend one year in the Damned's presence...what's more, there's even the possibility that the Damned will be my partner in the Retreat! Argh! No way am I going to spend nights with the Damned. No way.

Well..

I'm absolutely astounded as to how fast summer seems to fly by. One minute it's May, the other it's already June. I miss my best buds yet I can't seem to get "SCHOOL" out of my mind. School sucks big time, especially now since I'm already a Senior.

Senior-hood. Argh. It means a lot of things, one which will be "Physics", the other "Trigonometry". It means being away from my best friends (Well, Karla is in Elizabeth, Ruby in Maximilian, Shal in Anthony...me? I'm in Goretti! Argh!). It means being a leader in a lot of things, like Sportsfest and stuff. The big thing that Senior-hood means is graduation.

Yup, that big word graduation. Graduation means a lot of things too, you know, like the bigger word college.

I'm definitely scared of college. Yeah. It would be a lot easier if I can choose my own course, have a go at life for once making my own decisions, yet that seems to have been picked especially for me too. Yeah. I want a course where I can be myself...a course that will let me have fun while doing my job. I want something that I can be proud of, will let me have a decent paycheck, yet I will love having that job at the same time. Now that it's all settled that I take up Nursing...well, it's different.

Bottomline is: I don't like Nursing (never did, mind you) yet everyone thinks it's the only job worth taking. It's practicality they want. What I want doesn't seem to matter anymore. Heck, when I voiced out my thoughts, they didn't even listen! They just said that it's not a good job, it wouldn't get you anywhere, etc. etc. I hate thinking that Nursing is the only possible job for me, when there could be hundreds of options.

I hate thinking like this, but I need to. Time is trickling away, yet I can't seem to get a hold of my own life for a change.

But, oh well...it's the only choice I've got. I can't back out of the plan they made out for me.

Overflooding Stories!

Yep! I am so happy! I've made such a great progress during this summer! I've written, what, so many nice fanfics! Yes! Hehehehe....

To see them, visit my personal site, Sweet Musings. :)