Jesse!!!

Finally! I already had the chance to buy Jesse McCartney's CD!!! whew! Nice suave voice he's got...I was hoping I could get a copy of Ryan's [Cabrera], but my sister already got that. Sigh...I do think Jesse's much better than Ryan, voicewise and lookwise...hehehe...and that blond hair! Oohlalala!

*sigh*

Normally I would have something to search here in the Net...but right now...it just seems like I'm losing my interest. But that doesn't stop me from using the internet..Bwahahaha! I'm just so...well...I dunno. Although there's nothing I'd love to search for (like HP or whatever), I just go on and use the Net. But that's just me.

Btw, I can't find any ceramics for dear ol' Arn...I can't find any!!!! What am I supposed to do with my project???

Hmm...???

Never really got to see Sugar this day. *sigh* I just hate it when that happens. I do miss him, you know. Mum said that I care so much about him...but do I really? I mean, I guess I do care about him a bit...but not really that much. I guess mum was just exaggerating.

Right?

Come on...I'm not...well...I'm not in love with him now...right???? I can't be! I just...have this massive crush over him that can't be taken away. NOTHING MORE!

But why can't I just stop thinking about him? I was worried sick over him...about what he was actually doing that exact time. Argh! I don't want this to happen - I never did! I hate acting this way!

I am so confused, can't you tell? I'm in the point of being frustrated and angry and worried and light-headed.

Oh, well. What can I do? Life's just like that.

And yeah, saw Spice twice. ONLY twice. I just have this feeling fate wants me to miss the loves of my life. I saw HP just once. Ugh! And it would be very surprising if I see Batman in school. I just hate this.

I'm utterly not doing anything about my supposedly site to be opened. *sigh* I hate myself! Oh, and I researched more about Liam Aiken!!! He is so cute! Too bad I'm a year older than he is...Oh, well. :)

Can't anybody tell me I'm such a girly-girl who's so into guys??????????? I mean, tell me the truth!!!!!!!!!

Past is past...isn't it?

There he goes again...playing safe once more and trying his best to win me over...again. How many times has he told me this...? How many times have I believed in him? Again, his words sent tingles through my whole body. I don't know how he manages to do this to me. I hated him for breaking my heart years before...but now...he's doing it again by trying to be sweet.

First love never dies...I believed in it so much, yet ours faded through time. I got over him...I even forgot he existed in my world. But now he's trying to come back. He's trying to win me over with his sweet words and heart-wrenching handsomeness. I remember...it ended because...well...it ended because.

Just because. Just because it was over. We both knew it. I thought then that I wouldn't cry...and he wouldn't too.

But I did. He did so too.

I tried hard to forget him. I succeeded. I tried not to talk about him. For years, I forgot him.

Now, he is back.

I don't know why, but it seems like he still has that charisma...

I know now. You want me back.

But...do I want you too?

Site-y mighty

My ever-wonderful, soon-to-be-opened HP Media Site will soon be finally open! Woot! I am so happy, given that I have worked hard for it. By the way, it will be entitled Scarred A Harry Potter Media Site Woot! Just thinking about it makes me wanna jump up and shout!!!!

Oh, and I've got so many things to do (projects...), but I guess that really doesn't stop me from using the computer...huh?

Btw, Happy Valentines!!!

Captivated...??? Not!

Captivated - to attract and hold by charm, beauty and excellence.

The word says it all. Like it or not, it's just the way I was - and still am. I am just utterly captivated by him. Goodness only knows how much.

He captivates me. I don't know why. I don't know exactly when it all started. All I know is that he takes my breath away.

Again, he captivates me whether I like it or not. All I can ever do is surrender to it.

Once a Week?!

What will your reaction be if you find out that once and for all your father just cut your wonderful computer time and swore that you can only use the computer during weekends?

I say, shout and scream and wail and be angry!!!! Hate him with all of your flesh and blood!

Oh, how I hate it when my dad just tells me that I COULDN'T USE THE COMPUTER ANYMORE. Why now???? Why now???? Why now that I already have a layout of my site (Scarred...due to be out by Feb. 14 at the very least...)? Why now that I am already loving MS FrontPage again?! Why now???????

Why now?????????

Btw, my section WON SECOND PLACE IN THE POETRY IN MIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Woohoo!

I just can't tell you how much I am happy. And how much I am angry.

I am at the brink of having an offense (shhh...my family doesn't know a thing about this!!!!)...*sigh* and it's all because of eating!!! Goodness Gracious! I will sort it out by Wednesday. I promise.

Beta-ing

Got started with beta-ing. Hehehe...it's a wonderful job. I do hope I'll be accepted as an official editor for the school paper. I'm so sick of being a measly writer.

That's all, I guess...hehehe...nothing more to say.

Oh, I've got many, many, many things to do...assignments, projects, etc....*sigh* It's one thing after another.

Poetry [not again]

Well...once more this entry of mine in this stupid blog is all about the Poetry in Mime we're having. But now, this entry contains good news.

Well...we already finished the whole piece!!!! Woohoo!!!! And to think we just started practicing seriously last Tuesday. Hehe...My section is such a great procrastinator. Hope it works out well.

Sight-Seeing

My first post for the day was Argh!!! and was about the hideous events and feelings that occured. On the other hand, my second post, Sight-Seeing, will be all about the high points for the day.

Talk about seeing Eggbites. Ooh-lala!!!

Hehe...I am once again crushing over him too much. His hair is now...not really eggbite-y...hehehe...I noticed him wearing another baller (Egad! Won't he be seen by the OSA?) and he had with him a red handkerchief (err...I dunno). Lovely.

Argh!!!

Sometimes I just hate him.

Weird, ain't it?

Argh...I just...can't stop myself from feeling this. I mean, yeah, we were practicing, and our classmates weren't listening to him or anyone, for that matter. But then, he was putting this one long sermon like he was some kind of a priest or something when he's not. Well, to tell you the truth, he was wasting more time than was wasted already. Isn't that irritating? We only have one hour of extension per day, and then he's wasting it for what--a sermon?!?!

Goodness, what will happen to our section if this goes on and on? I mean, at least when no one listens, those who are involved with a current scene could still work. But with what he's doing? Well, we couldn't even finish anything. I hate it when he's acting like that. I admit, he is a good leader, a very good leader indeed. But he is overdoing it. And I mean absolutely exaggerated proportions. Don't even talk proportionated now...he is too much!!!

And then I remember--I agreed to become the Assistant Director, and he was the Overall Director. But according to him, due to his tight schedule, he couldn't fulfill his duties and therefore had Joseph to be the new director. Now, it is actually appalling to feel like this. I mean, yeah, I am Assistant Director, but you know what? It's more like I am nothing to the whole thing. He is the director whilst Joseph is the Assistant. I mean, come on, it's not like I could do anything about it! He was acting all high and mighty that I wouldn't dare say a thing. After all, it was for the betterment of the whole mime.

Then again, being out of the whole directing part isn't so good to feel when I was assigned to be the assistant. It was like I wasn't doing my job, when Heaven knows that I'm doing it best as I can. I mean, what the heck am I supposed to do, when I feel like I'm acting out of line when I do something in my part. When I do suggest something, I don't tell him or Joseph directly, but Jam. Why? Because I feel as if my suggestions will all be overruled. It's like they don't accept any suggestion coming from me--and I hate that. I feel out of place when I'm with them. It's like the "Shoo, go away! We don't need you here" feeling that's with me.

I hate it.

I totally do.