last day of August

This is the last day of August - waaaahhh!!! My birthday is upcoming...really, really soon, you know. Just think the first Saturday of September (isn't that real soon?). Anyways, I'm here, posting my last post of August. Nothing much to say, just that I can't believe how time flies - the last I knew it was just June, start of classes. Now First Quarter is up, say bye-bye to happy-go-lucky evenings, say hello to nights full of work, work, work!!! I couldn't exactly believe it - and just yesterday the teachers had the deliberation of our grades! Whoa! What'll happen to me if I find out that I am not included in the Top Five list? *Sigh* Guess I'll just have to wait for the report card to come...

*SIGH*

What a day...I couldn't say anything here...I lost 70 bucks...that's something, you know, considering my daily allowance is just 120...sigh...and that wasn't even my money!!! That was for the feast we're going to have at school...now I need to pay it all...sigh...oh well...

Exactly one hour

What a bad day...I'm allowed today for only one hour - exactly one damn hour!!! And do you think I can accomplish everything with just one measly hour???? NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I cannot accept this! I certainly cannot accept this!! But I can't do anything about it....*SIGH*

Two times of computer!!!! Wheee!!!

I am so happy today...Guess what? I used the computer twice!!! Yay! Well...I guess you couldn't count my using the computer this morning since it was for school stuff and all, but whatever. I still am happy because using the computer TWICE is very rare...ha!

Another day without classes

Talk about fun...yesterday we had no classes...and right now, we have no classes! Due to the stormy weather, the Department of Education declared "No classes" in Elementary and High School. And to think yesterday's weather was worse, and the DepEd didn't declare anything...I mean, come on...*sigh* And I really, really wanted to come to school today.

What a day...yesterday and today!

Remember the choral recitation I was talking about? Well, we did well. Out of six sections, I thought we did well. We might have been able to get an award - maybe third place or second. I knew what section will get the first place - it was obvious. But when the declaration of winners came - my section didn't even get one single award. None. I was shocked, disappointed and felt sorry for me and my peers. I mean, what we did was really hard. We tried to fight - we tried our best. But now I do know that our best isn't good enough...*Sigh*

And right now, I am back here in my home, it's already 7:49 am, Wednesday. It's supposed to be a class day, and I went to school really early. But guess what? Classes today have been SUSPENDED. Yeah, and I went to school, thinking there were classes. So did many of the students at my school. What a day. *SIGH*

Talk About Dead Tired!

I am so tired!!! Dead Tired with capitals D and T...*sigh* And tomorrow's the Big Day of our Choral Recitation. I'm quite confident with our presentation, of course. At first, I thought we don't stand a chance, since I thought the movements and gestures which I took part in making were lame (uber lame), but it wasn't - not that much. Just now, a day before the actual presentation, we finished practicing, and it was pretty good. Only...the other sections are pretty good, too, so I don't know if we'll ever make it as champions or something...:) Hope we'll make it. :)

Pray! That's the least I can do.

Oh, and yeah, memorize the poem. I haven't memorized the whole of it. Well...I tried. Hard, actually. I finished memorizing, but I still keep on jumbling the lines up, skipping from fourth line to the eighth or something like that...but whatever. I can do it.

I know I can.

For once, I may be able to be confident in something.

Happiness in One Day

I totally forgot to tell what exactly happened that day at practice. Well...nothing so out of the ordinary. I went to McDonald's to meet up with my classmates, saw a friend, ate (or maybe slurped) ice cream, then hopped onto the van to be taken somewhere far away where we were to practice. Nothing was unusual in that practice, except that I learned how to play the dominoes (I honestly didn't know how, until we played!), played a little bit of chess with a friend, ate at another branch of McDonald's, then practiced (a lot), drank a LOT of water, saw dog poo (total eww), then went back home. But on the ride back home was what made somewhat an impression on me...it was one of those memories I will never, EVER, in my entire life forget.

Well...it went on like this. There were two vans to be used, and one was for the 'art' section (erm...can't really explain much), which composed of only two guys and LOTS of girls, then the other one was where I was, the mixed section. I was with my friends, and other acquaintances. But we were a bunch of happy, funny people.

So we were in the van, when one classmate of mine, who was in the passenger's seat beside the driver, was checking out the sounds, flicking on the stations to see if there's a good song to hear. Then, it stopped in the song 'Mandy'. You know, the revival of Westlife of Barry Manilow's original masterpiece. I knew the entire song by heart, so I sang while the guys of Westlife were singing. Then, to my surprise, LoML, my one and only love, sang, too! I just ignored it. I mean, what was wrong with singing??? Nothing. So I just went on with singing "Mandy, well you came and you gave without taking...blah blah blah" when one classmate who was sitting next to LoML, said, in this very loud voice, "Hey, they're singing together!"

And that was where it started. The teasing, I mean. My classmates teased us. Of course, I didn't show that I was affected by their teasing, seeing as if I do show it, then they might realize that I do have certain feelings for the guy. And I will NEVER let anybody know that...well, except for my friends, that is.

So there it went...they started teasing us, and that if ever we get together, you know, get married or something, our child will be the reincarnation of Albert Einstein, seeing as we're both smart and all...But whatever...I'm just so happy, I feel like I'm up in the clouds!!!

Crying over GetBackers

It's been awhile since I last posted. I had so much work to do at school. We had a diorama to finish (Persepolis, can you imagine), then the exams (Phew! Thank God it's already finished! It's like Hell!)...I scraped in English, which was rather disappointing. I thought English was my best subject. Darn that Beowulf! I lost 14 points over that. Then right now, an inter-section contest is being held. My section is practicing...well, not too hard, but still striving to do our best. Then a two-day no classes is held (Phew! I need some rest), but I only had to indulge in one day, since the first day was kinda gobbled up by all the practices...Whatever, with a capital T.

I finished watching the anime show, GetBackers. The ending was happy, and I liked it. MakubeX wasn't erased in this forsaken world, the seal in Sakura's arm was taken off by none other than Kaoru (that darn pig! Ginji is mine!), Lower Town of the Infinite Fortress was then not controlled by Brain Trust, Mido Ban and Amano Ginji still continue on being Retrievers without any money to pay their tabs. To say the least, the ending was very happy, rather funny. But I was sad. How come? Well...because it was such a good anime to watch and enjoy, only for it to end in a 49th episode (so short!!! And to think Yuyu Hakusho, Slam Dunk, and Rurouni Kenshin are long). I had fun watching Ginji encounter Akabane-san aka Dr. Jackal loads of times, and now it's the end? No wonder fanatics of GB want a part 2 of the Retrieval Agents' lives. *Sigh* I'm gonna miss laughing about it. Oh well, this proves that I am really an anime junkie...or might as well say I am an anime otaku.

Has anyone watched Detective Conan? It's such a great anime...too bad the local station here didn't finish the series. Damn them! And to think Dragon Ball was run again and again right now...*Sigh*

Crushes

This is supposed to be hidden, a secret that must not be revealed to just anyone but just to my closest friends. But I can't help it. The reassuring thing about posting here is that you don't exactly know who I am. Possibly, I might be your sister, friend, or someone you don't really know in person. But whatever. I'm here to tell you my crushes, celebrity or not.
1. Sugar
- who else? I've been in love with this guy for what, three years? It seems impossible for him to become my love if he wasn't my crush before...right?
2. My Crushness
- The total babe! Just kidding...well, he was my crush back in grade school. That crush lasted for two years. Imagine...but I never did see him again. And that crush gradually fades right now.
3. Jeremy Sumpter
- Cute, tall, super...these are some of the things that I can fully well say about Jeremy. He's really one hell of a guy. If you don't know him, or haven't heard of him, might I suggest that you watch Peter Pan.
4. Andy Roddick
- I dunno exactly how I had a crush on this guy. I mean, at first, I said he was just famous, but he wasn't cute or anything. Now I take it all back! He's super wow - especially whenever he's up for a serve in tennis...too bad he lost to Andre Agassi in the semi-finals just this week (or maybe last week...can't exactly remember).
5. Tom Cruise
- Just think Mission Impossible. ^_^
6. Daniel Radcliffe
- He might not be the exact replica of Harry Potter, but he is awesome and cute! (I called him my bubba once...teehee)
7. Ashton Kutcher
- The only thing that I don't like about him is...well, nothing. ^_^ Hehehe...
8. Orlando Bloom
- I don't exactly know if I have a crush on him or his character in the Lord of the Rings, Legolas. But when I saw him as Paris in Troy, then I knew that I do have a crush on Orlando Bloom...ahehehe...
9. Aaron Carter
- Super blondness has taken its toll on me.
10. Josh Groban
- I love his voice!
11. Robert Schwartzman
- Princess Diaries' Michael Moscovitz. Gotta love him.
12. Kobe Bryant
- Everytime he scores in basketball, he is so lovable! (Go Lakers!)
13. Taylor Hanson
- He's got a wife, but whatever. I love his voice.
14. Rupert Grint
- Gotta love redheads.
15. Leonardo diCaprio
- Another blond whom I had a crush on...teehee...
16. Sean Biggerstaff
- Who says Dan, Rupert and Tom got all the spotlight? Sean is another one from the Harry Potter movies that makes girls scream their lungs out.
17. The White King
- The one and only...it's been awhile...(Clue: Translate white into another language...)

Is that all I have?? Um...I lost the list I had of my crushes. I can't think anymore...tired, I guess..See yah...

Exams

Exams are coming up...just a few days (um...it's starting on Thursday...this week) and I haven't even opened a book or notebook to study yet!!! Oh, what am I supposed to do for that day???? Tell me!! Here's my darn predicament: I'm too lazy to study, to lazy to even post regularly on this blog of mine...I sleep too much, and get bored too damn easily. That's why I never do get to study that much cause I get sleepy all of a sudden then I hit the sack without even reading the whole of my notes or whatever...but I need to study for the exams, or else I won't be able to make it in the top five...or even top ten. You see, in my year level, there are almost 30 honor students...and just in my classroom there are tens!!! I dunno exactly how many...so let's count those who are known for their intelligence and those whom I think have potential:
1. LoML (I gave him a new nick: Sugar.)
2. One of my ever-loving best friends who's got this unique name from a perfume and whose nick is the Japanese currency.
3. The class president.
4. A girl (dunno really if she's potentially honor-like or something...but oh well, I'll include her) whom we named as Paper. Can't explain right now.
5. This girl whom my Sugar is teasing...(Clue: She's small, and pronounces 'r' in a different way...)
6. So many more...

I've entered just a few of them cause I can't exactly tell you their names, in case somebody in my class knew this blog and reads it then just realizes that I'm the one who writes here...

Next post is all 'bout my crushes...teehee...

Underneath

I can feel that there's a connection between me and this song...at first I hated this song so much - I couldn't stand it. But now, just hearing it soothes my tired mind...dunno exactly why. It's performed by Hanson.

Underneath
by Hanson

Waking up this morning thinking this can't be real
But they say there's nothing love can't heal
Why don't you come on down
So you can feel what I feel?
Sitting all alone in this place
Even though we're here face to face
There is nothing gone
But there's something wrong.
Can't you see that I'm stuck here underneath?
And you're making it hard to breathe
Take a look around and tell me what you see
You'll find me underneath
I know what to say but don't know where to begin
I fear of losing you beneath my skin
Is there resolution for this pain that I'm in
Sittin' all alone in this place
Even though we're here face to face
There is nothing gone
But there's something wrong
Can't you see that I'm stuck in underneath?
And you're making it hard to breathe
Take a look around and tell me what you see
You'll find me underneath
Cuz you'll find me
Whoh-oh-whoh. (2x)
If only you could feel what I dream
Maybe you hear what I mean
There is nothing gone but there's something missing
Can't you see?
That I'm stuck in underneath
And you're making it hard to breathe
Take a look around and tell me what you see
You'll find me underneath
Cuz i'm stuck in underneath
And your making it hard to breath
Take a look around and tell me what you see
You'll find me
Underneath
Underneath

Never Get Over You...

Never Get Over You (Getting Over Me)
Expose

I hear you're taking the town again
Having a good time, with all your good time friends
I don't think that you think of me
You're on your own now
And I'm alone and free

I know that I should get on with my life
But a life lived without you could never be right

*As long as the stars shine down from the heavens
Long as the rivers run to the sea
I'll never get over you, getting over me

I try to smile so the hurt won't show
Tell everybody I was glad to see you go
But the pain just won't go away
Loneliness found me
Looks like it's here to stay

I know that I ought to find someone new
But all I find is myself always thinking of you*

Oh, no matter what I do
It's just a lifetime to live through
I can't go on like this
(I need your touch)
You're the only one I'll ever love*

I'll never get over you getting over me

I loved this so for no reason at all...just thought to post it here...

The Story of Ice Cream, the real part two

The Story of Ice Cream, Part Two
As what I have said before, I shall continue on the story of Ice Cream. By the way, this is true-to-life, real story. I do not plan on making some stuck-up lies about him. I couldn't possibly tell his real name - let's just leave him as Ice Cream. But I do promsie that whatever I am saying here is true.
Now back on to the story. That was, I guess, the start of my crush on Ice Cream. I started noticing him more, and I always thought that he liked me in...well, that kind of way. He always notices me, so I thought maybe he liked me...
And another proof for that was that he always came up to me, teased me, anooyed me, you know...those things a guy would do to the girl he likes. He even called me his "wife". I was so pleased that time...I couldn't even frown a bit.
But that was before I knew about his crush...and that flirt.

The Story of Ice Cream, Part 2

That was the first part...now here's the second part...where were we, anyways??? Hehe...I completely forgot...do forgive me for that. I'll check my blog (hehe...) then post it up...alright? Teehee...

The Story of Ice Cream, Part 1

The Story of Ice Cream, Part One
My first post for this day, I had mentioned an Ice Cream, to which you might say, "Huh? What/Who the heck is that? What the hell is she talking about?" Now, I said before that I would later elaborate on the subject, or maybe even tell the story about it. Here's the first part of my account of the life of an Ice Cream (whoever you are, if you know who you are, that is)...
It all started this school year, when I was fortunately placed on this section (can't tell exactly what), which fortunately includes LoML. In other words, for another school year he is once again my classmate. What a good way to start the year, ain't it? That was what I thought so, too. It even became better when in the first groupings held on our Religion class, I became groupmates with this silent, almost shy guy which I will later call as Ice Cream. I never noticed him before. I even thought he was this new student, but he wasn't - he just wasn't that much popular. I never really gave much thought about him at first - until that day, on Religion class. I was assigned as the leader of our group, and supposedly, we were to answer a few questions in a piece of paper. While I was answering the questions, I was looking at LoML, who was sitting right beside me! That's probably one of the reasons why I never gave Ice Cream attention. And then, after quite a few minutes, he started to become annoying, asking questions about me, about the subject, about my standing in the whole third year...et cetera et cetera...
It was annoying, as I was busy writing out our answers, but I had to admit, it was quite flattering that he was asking questions about me.
Afterwards, I quite forgot those things, but whenever I'd remember them, I would always keep a smile on my face.

Nothing Can Stop Us Now

I've been taken with this song for this day...so I'll be posting it here...I love it and the real meaning of the song is fully appreciated by me...even if there's no one to dedicate this song to.

Nothing Can Stop Us Now
by Rick Price

Soft as a rainbow, like stardust on moonglow
I see the love in your eyes
Like autumn leaves falling
And the first touch of morning
It came to my surprise
True love comes just once in a lifetime
Why should we wait when now it's the right time

*Nothing can stop this love we're making
Nothing can stand in our way
Nothing can block this road we've taken
Nothing can stop us now

The joy of surrender
So strong yet so tender
I give my heart to you
You know you could trust me
And that's how we must be
No matter what we do
Faithful friends and lovers forever
Right 'til the end we'll always be together*

When love comes swiftly to your door
Embrace completely what your soul is longing for*

...Nothing can stop us now...

Nothing to say...

Nothing out-of-the-normal to say here right now, actually. Maybe the main reason about that is that my day has been nothing but perfectly normal, nothing different. Well...maybe a little odd, but nothing that made me angry or depressed this day or whatever. Just plain ol' hanging out at school...I got the chance to talk to LoML (hehe...taking the best of every opportunity coming my way), I had a wonderful "teasing time" with Ice Cream (I'll explain later...or probably another day...), we finished the experiment in Chemistry on time (Thank God!), and 'twas a day free of my least favorite subject...which turns out to be quite okay, to say the least.
Hmm...what else, what else? Can't think of anything to say now. Told you nothing weird was going on lately...except for the fact that Ice Cream does like that terrible hag. She's not a hag, actually...not morbidly deformed, either (she's prettier than I am). I'm just...well, irritated with her. As I told you before, I'll get to that sometime later...or maybe another post...
So right now it's 8:44 PM, I am sleepy, owing to the fact that I read almost 2 books which I have previously read (Princess Diaries...if you wanna know), and I did that while lying on my bed. Yeah, I'm that lazy. But whatever. I don't have any homeworks to attend to, anyways. Except for that difficult diorama project...and yeah, a quiz tomorrow. And an assignment for least favorite subject, due on Friday. Oh, and a project for English. I'm not busy, eh?

My first post

My First Post

Whew...for some reason, I don't know what, this is my first post. Although I have tried my best to post yesterday, I couldn't find anything interesting enough to say. My mind was blank and I guess, in a way sleepy ('twas almost 3 in the morning that time...), but I thought I needed to have something to say...but what? Even right now, I couldn't find anything to say, even though I know so many words are bottled up inside me right now. Somehow, I couldn't find the right words, or the right person to tell my problems, for that matter.

But what are my problems? You see, I've got many. Schoolwork is one. I've been trying my best to keep my grades intact, and I've been quite successful. That comes to me naturally (in a very odd way, I guess). Family...well, fortunately for me, there have not been a big issue in the family right now. Just a few about chores, this and that...but whatever. I can handle that. Problems about friendship? None of the sort, I guess. I'm doing fine on that part.

So what the hell is bothering me?

You see...it's all about...well, the heart maybe. It's not actually odd. For some reason, I've been handling this darn love problem ever since I entered high school. I'm a junior now, and it's been three years since I've had this feeling for one guy. I couldn't exactly say what, cause even I myself don't know what it is...but something about him is drawing me closer and closer and closer...until eventually I fall. I fall head over heels in love with him, yet to him I do not exist. That's what's bothering me. I couldn't even tell him how I feel. It's like a major thing - only my best friends know about him...and I've only got a few.

Who is he, anyway? Well...let's first describe him, shall we? Let's call him LoML, which stands for (yup, you guessed it): Love of My Life.

LoML is this tall guy, with glasses (yep...glasses. People sometimes see that as a turn-off...but whatever), has dimples, a clean haircut, and oh-so-adorable good looks. You might say that he's a pretty-boy and all, but he's just not all that. He's something more. Elaborate? Sure. LoML is an honor student, just like me. LoML is smart...he's got a very good memory, which he actually uses for everything. I think that's one of the basic reasons why I really like him...or maybe not.

See, I never really liked him before. Not in that way. I hated him, because he's so smart, he's so cute...he is so damn perfect. I could never be like him. People idolize him for his leadership, for his being oh-so-smart and all, and his being so darn irresistable to girls. I hated him for that. And he's somewhat arrogant, too. You know, all high-and-mighty. That was what I thought. Was is the verb to be used. I thought that then...but now, I think otherwise.

So what exactly happened for me to think otherwise, huh? That's exactly my question. How did I get from hating him to loving him? How? What happened? What made me fall for someone like him? Someone whom I could never get, could never have...?

He is too perfect for me. Somehow...that's what I always think of. I could not have the courage to tell straight to his face that "Hey I like you". If I do that, I would certainly be doomed forever. He would think me a lunatic. And then everything would crash in front of me...everything. Even the bond I have with him...the little-less-than friendship we have. I don't even know if we really are friends or not. I mean, for Heaven's sake, he calls me by my surname! But...it doesn't matter, so long as he notices me...so long as he knows I exist...that's enough...