Well..

I'm absolutely astounded as to how fast summer seems to fly by. One minute it's May, the other it's already June. I miss my best buds yet I can't seem to get "SCHOOL" out of my mind. School sucks big time, especially now since I'm already a Senior.

Senior-hood. Argh. It means a lot of things, one which will be "Physics", the other "Trigonometry". It means being away from my best friends (Well, Karla is in Elizabeth, Ruby in Maximilian, Shal in Anthony...me? I'm in Goretti! Argh!). It means being a leader in a lot of things, like Sportsfest and stuff. The big thing that Senior-hood means is graduation.

Yup, that big word graduation. Graduation means a lot of things too, you know, like the bigger word college.

I'm definitely scared of college. Yeah. It would be a lot easier if I can choose my own course, have a go at life for once making my own decisions, yet that seems to have been picked especially for me too. Yeah. I want a course where I can be myself...a course that will let me have fun while doing my job. I want something that I can be proud of, will let me have a decent paycheck, yet I will love having that job at the same time. Now that it's all settled that I take up Nursing...well, it's different.

Bottomline is: I don't like Nursing (never did, mind you) yet everyone thinks it's the only job worth taking. It's practicality they want. What I want doesn't seem to matter anymore. Heck, when I voiced out my thoughts, they didn't even listen! They just said that it's not a good job, it wouldn't get you anywhere, etc. etc. I hate thinking that Nursing is the only possible job for me, when there could be hundreds of options.

I hate thinking like this, but I need to. Time is trickling away, yet I can't seem to get a hold of my own life for a change.

But, oh well...it's the only choice I've got. I can't back out of the plan they made out for me.