Of 21s, hatred and utter disappointment

(Written earlier this day at school)

I'm super-duper irritated.

Right now, everyone's just so smart that I feel so dumb about myself. Dumb. Yeah, like Patrick in Spongebob Squarepants.

And you know what?

I utterly hate feeling like this.

See, I'm not surprised if someone like him will top me. I mean, yeah, he's smarter than I am. Of course I feel so much irritated about it, but not that much.

Right before lunch I feel like I accomplished something. Why? Because I had good results from my previous tests--meaning almost reaching my standards. But then Chemistry came and ruined my day.

I got 21 mistakes in Chemistry.

Of course, when the exam's more than 100 points (like English), it wouldn't be much of a big deal. But no, the exam only contained 75 points, which meant I only got 54 correct! What's more, almost everyone got a better score than I did! Course I'm exaggerating here, but ignore that.

I just hate it when this happens.

Not that I hate getting low grades--it's actually okay for me. But what I hate most is the fact that when I get a low grade, people (like my family) almost always get disappointed, like I'm a disgrace. Then they all ask me, "What happened?"

I hate that.

And then HE comes bumping out and almost FLIRTING with my friend. Huh?! Since when did that happen? He was almost FLIRTING with HER!!!

I hate the jealousy feeling in the pit of my stomach when that happens.

Totally hate it.

How cruel could this day be?

Edited: I'm kind of embarassed by the way I wrote this. Nevertheless, this is the way I thought it was before, so I wouldn't change a word in this post. Although I feel that I was very childish when I posted this...*sigh* Now I feel kind of humiliated. :)